Happy Binge Day!

Not a great day, as far as eating goes. My in-laws were here today and that always makes things tough for me. Not that they are horrible, but any little stress equals m & m's, or whatever else is around that i can binge on. Get in a disagreement with my husband...bam! There goes the stress level, there goes the sugar level. to say i've got trouble handling stress would be an understatement! (to say i've got trouble using capital letters would also be an understatement). my 3 year old goes back to preschool tomorrow, my husband has a doctor appointment (to check the surgery he had on his arm a week and a half ago). those things don't sound stressful, but they are. i had a lot of low moments today, not necessarily looking for pills to swallow, but certainly wishing i was a different person. i wish things didn't bother me so much. i wish i could take care of myself better. i wish i didn't hate myself so much. not a very uplifting blog, is it? well, i guess there isn't much more to say this evening. i will go to bed depressed, will wake up energetic in the morning, feeling like i can do anything, can eat right, can be positive and somewhere along the line, i'll take a wrong turn, and my day will spiral out of control, like the flushing of a toilet. you'll have to check in and see tomorrow if this is the case.